I thought I would have been over with it by now, but I still don’t feel great after being rejected.
If you aren’t up to date, I told a guy that I’ve liked for about a year about how I felt and he told me “no, sorry”. You can get the specifics of it in my previous two posts. So yeah, stings a bit. However, I can’t get over it. I know it’s normal not to, but I can tell this isn’t going to go away anytime soon.
I just feel weird whenever I have class with him. We’re both acknowledging each other and trying our best to show that we aren’t. It’s really awkward and I think it’s gonna be like that for a while. I just think he has a different opinion of me now. When I went to tell him how I felt, it was after a year of endless thinking and fear. I didn’t just want to have a relationship to show it off and break up after a month or so. I really had feelings for him, I just don’t know if they understand that. I never even wanted to date until I saw him. I got too ahead of myself and was caught in something dumb. I feel so ugly and gross.
I also hate that it’s going to be impossible to ever be friends with him. He’s always going to remember me as that loser who tried to ask him out. It’s like thats all they know about me now. Not my interests, hobbies, personality, just that I’ve been thinking about him. That’s why I never wanted to deal with anything relationships-related. I never wanted my image to change. I don’t want to be viewed as obsessive and sexual. I feel like that’s my lasting impression.
I just want to know if someone could like me. I really thought this could be it, but it wasn’t. I know I’m going to have to get over this but it hurts. I’m so dumb.