To begin with, I ruined myself. I am the reason why I can’t live a normal life. I Skewed my perspective on what was acceptable of myself, which snowballed to bigger issues. Since the 7th grade, I began to actually destroy my mentality. I made school too important, to the point where a perfect score on an exam was the only thing that made me happy. I became obsessed
I looked at some photos of me during my eighth-grade graduation. Usually, I do not like to look at old photos because they’re embarrassing or I don’t want to remind myself of the past. But now, these photos did not make any impact on me at all: it was as if I was looking at a totally different person.
I use to hate the end of a day, and would catch myself getting sad when I couldn’t see the sun anymore. But now, a sunset means so much more. Continue reading
I love my family, a lot. However, they can really get on my nerves, especially when I’m already anxious or annoyed. Today, they are managing to really tick me off. I don’t like “exposing” my family members, but they’re sometimes to the root of my problem.
As the weather is starting to get better, and the school year is coming to an end, there’s more opportunities to enjoy myself and actually have fun. However, I’ve noticed that I tend to prevent myself from doing so because I don’t like to let things go and see the positive side of things. I end up depressing myself and make believe that everything sucks, when things are way better in reality.
I’m going to try to be more positive, because I’ll know I’ll regret it in the end.
Anyways, here’s another random list about today.
Since I was away from my blog, I would just write all of my thoughts on my phone or in my notebook. I was just getting kind of tired of it, and I remember how easy it was to get my thoughts out there through blogging. I realized that my blog gave me something to look forward for, so I’m going to try to not abandon it again.
Anyways, here’s just a random list of things about my day.
As usual, I took and unreasonably long break from this blog. I came back because I have actually entered the worst state of my life so far. I look at my old posts and see how depressed I was about the smallest things. Those issues literally do not match up to what I’m experiencing now.
I realized that ever since I entered High School, I pretty much stopped talking to anyone in my old school, and haven’t talked to any of my old friends since. Usually this stuff wouldn’t bother me and I would just move on with my life. However, my memories of past friends keep coming back to me, and I’m starting to regret loosing some of my closet friends.
During the days I have been absent from my blog, I have been getting back into the groove of school, and going into my usual flow. So far, Continue reading
So… school is starting very soon for me, and as you may expect, I’m nervous.