I thought I would have been over with it by now, but I still don’t feel great after being rejected.
Without falling into another depression again, I told the guy I liked about how I felt. It was early in the morning, he was sitting at a table with no one around. I decided to go up to him
After a therapeutic summer, I started to feel more like myself again. I felt so fresh. I just felt so “okay”, like I was truly happy with my life. I loved my friends, family, and even school started to be something I looked forward to. However, I’m starting to fall down a hole all teenagers do; love.
I know I haven’t been blogging as often, which is pretty disappointing because I wanted to blog a lot during the summer. However, I couldn’t let this important day pass. Though it seems small, today marks the 2nd anniversary of my blog.
Summer vacation has just started for me, and I was ready for everything to start getting better. I’m happy school is out of the way for a little while, and I have more time to feel like myself again. However, I’ve noticed that I have been getting worse (mentally) in just a couple of days. Continue reading
To begin with, I ruined myself. I am the reason why I can’t live a normal life. I Skewed my perspective on what was acceptable of myself, which snowballed to bigger issues. Since the 7th grade, I began to actually destroy my mentality. I made school too important, to the point where a perfect score on an exam was the only thing that made me happy. I became obsessed
I looked at some photos of me during my eighth-grade graduation. Usually, I do not like to look at old photos because they’re embarrassing or I don’t want to remind myself of the past. But now, these photos did not make any impact on me at all: it was as if I was looking at a totally different person.
I use to hate the end of a day, and would catch myself getting sad when I couldn’t see the sun anymore. But now, a sunset means so much more. Continue reading
As the weather is starting to get better, and the school year is coming to an end, there’s more opportunities to enjoy myself and actually have fun. However, I’ve noticed that I tend to prevent myself from doing so because I don’t like to let things go and see the positive side of things. I end up depressing myself and make believe that everything sucks, when things are way better in reality.
I’m going to try to be more positive, because I’ll know I’ll regret it in the end.
Anyways, here’s another random list about today.
Since I was away from my blog, I would just write all of my thoughts on my phone or in my notebook. I was just getting kind of tired of it, and I remember how easy it was to get my thoughts out there through blogging. I realized that my blog gave me something to look forward for, so I’m going to try to not abandon it again.
Anyways, here’s just a random list of things about my day.