This post was originally supposed to be about how much my few couple of days were kind of sucking, and how I thought the first couple of hours of my September 12th, 2019 was just that.
It’s my blog’s three-year anniversary!
Even though I don’t post as often as I should, this blog has served as my aid whenever I was in need. It was always behind me no matter what.
Today has been very, very interesting… in a bad way.
To make it short, I kind of had a breakdown/panic attack which I haven’t had in a long time. I’m not the type to showcase my emotions and lose control over them often so it was unusual that I did.
I use to have extreme anxiety. I was always anxious about an upcoming test, a lengthy homework assignment, or having to do anything outside of my comfort zone. My mood could be turned all the way around just because of a new task I was faced with. All I could think about is what I had to do and I would only be relived once I completed it. This would lead to some unreasonable choices that wouldn’t benefit me in the end.
I haven’t posted in six months. Oops. This is going to be a really quick post since I just want to update whoever reads this on my life.
I know I haven’t been blogging as often, which is pretty disappointing because I wanted to blog a lot during the summer. However, I couldn’t let this important day pass. Though it seems small, today marks the 2nd anniversary of my blog.
Summer vacation has just started for me, and I was ready for everything to start getting better. I’m happy school is out of the way for a little while, and I have more time to feel like myself again. However, I’ve noticed that I have been getting worse (mentally) in just a couple of days. Continue reading
I love my family, a lot. However, they can really get on my nerves, especially when I’m already anxious or annoyed. Today, they are managing to really tick me off. I don’t like “exposing” my family members, but they’re sometimes to the root of my problem.
As the weather is starting to get better, and the school year is coming to an end, there’s more opportunities to enjoy myself and actually have fun. However, I’ve noticed that I tend to prevent myself from doing so because I don’t like to let things go and see the positive side of things. I end up depressing myself and make believe that everything sucks, when things are way better in reality.
I’m going to try to be more positive, because I’ll know I’ll regret it in the end.
Anyways, here’s another random list about today.
Since I was away from my blog, I would just write all of my thoughts on my phone or in my notebook. I was just getting kind of tired of it, and I remember how easy it was to get my thoughts out there through blogging. I realized that my blog gave me something to look forward for, so I’m going to try to not abandon it again.
Anyways, here’s just a random list of things about my day.